Clams Today

I'm so happy and proud that my once and still fussy eaters are now willing to try out new food. I never thought it's possible for them to like clams. They eat a variety of raw and cooked vegetables, nuts, fruit, seafood and meats..

Saturday Stress

Alfee has got a birthday party to attend at Suntec City after his swimming lesson, so I took Sophie out for shopping. Sophie enjoys shopping… for her stuff, but she was happy to offer her opinion of the dresses I picked. I was glad that my 2-3 hours of shopping effort didn't go to waste because I bought myself 2 dresses. Yeah!

We regrouped at Raffles City after lunch and we sent the kids to their weekly Chinese lessons at Hua Cheng. I realised that things are really starting to pick up in momentum, soon we all would be worrying about exams and P1 registration. 

Alfee joined First Kicks and today he got his uniform. He looks all grown up now. And I think he's growing up really fast. He'll always have a special place in my heart… 

She Loves Me... Yay... Yay... Yay... On Wed...

Alfee wore the mask all the from school home. He said Lena made it for him because she loves him. Then he proudly declared, " I love Lena... She's my girlfriend!"

My Response To Her

"Why don't you say I have, on purpose, summoned the heavy rain now because I want you to be shivering wet and cold for 2 hours in air conditioned room during your Hua Cheng lesson? At least make me sound magical and powerful if you want to say something untrue about me!"

My response to her accusation (wailing and whining) that I'm being mean (making her revise her 听写 and clean up her room... and saying no when she asked me to buy her Dork Diaries) to her. That kind of shut her up... for the time being.

The Truth

Lies are like weeds and plants are relationships. They rob the plants of the nutrients, water and sunlight necessary for growth. And they grow so quickly that very soon, there's nothing much of the original plants left. If one lies to me because one thinks I can't handle the truth... imagine how I would handle a lie exposed. I have a talent in finding answers. The truth is I can manage truth better than I can tolerate lies. Looks like I have lost another friend.

Last Day Before School Term Starts

I arranged for 8 am swimming lesson for Alfee today before his drum lesson at 10 am. Usually, he doesn't swim so early but we have been skipping too many lessons. It was good because he seems to have got some of his courage back. I hope he will continue on and start swimming without a float soon. 

Sophie wanted to eat lunch at Shilifang badly so we went to Orchard Central. Although there's one outlet at Thomson Plaza, we still dare not eat there. I can't get over the rat I saw. After lunch, we went home. Both Ck and I slept while the kids watched their favourite DVD shows. Then they woke us and pestered us to take them to Bishan Park. 

I really didn't want to go, but I forced my aching, tired body out of the sofa and dragged my feet there with them. They were on bike and skate scooter… I WAS ON FOOT!!!!! It was mind over matter. Anyway, I had to do this. My body is shutting down and I need to wake it up before it stops functioning.

First Day In Anderson Primary

也不知道她哪来的勇气, 从不需要我... 在外总是自己照顾自己, 必要时还能挺身维护弟弟。可能正因为如此, 她不是一个轻易就服从他人的孩子。一路和她一起走来不易, 有苦有痛只有自己懂。她的情绪波动,蛮横无礼和轻浮不定... 都是致命伤。 

Bye Bye Old Me...

I chanced upon this picture as I was fiddling around with the computer. Let's face it! I'm never going to look or feel like that again. Despite the fatigue of motherhood, I was younger, stronger and more active. Ever since my Sjogren's hit me, it's downhill all the way for me. I still feel like crying when I look at this picture. Sophie looked happy and adorable, Alfee tamed and chubby, and I look like I could keep everything together. I wish things hadn't changed as much as they did. Those days are gone forever.

Birthday Party And Hua Cheng

Alfee's ex-classmate turned 6 today and all of us were invited to his birthday party. Usually, I don't attend birthday parties because the socialising depletes my energy. And I feel really out of place among the rich and capable parents. Today, I was determined to do some good to my psyche by making myself go…for a change. I made myself all cheery and positive. I also told myself to ignore all my self defeating negative voices. Well, it kind of worked. I initiated conversations. I listened attentively. I think I did well… for 2 hours. 

We left soon after the cake was cut. The kids had Chinese classes at Hua Cheng. It was Alfee's first class and we were all both anxious and excited. Fortunately, everything went pretty well. He enjoyed the class and the teacher is both very engaging and firm. He also found himself a new friend in class who happens to be the younger brother of a boy in Sophie's class. Such luck! So I ended up chit chatting with the boy's mum who turns out to be a soft spoken and friendly lady. Well, I must keep opening up to invite more people into my life.