Moving Towards Fitness

I have so many complaints about pains and illnesses that people has stopped listening to them. They think I'm just being creative with my excuses. I always tell others I have never experienced the infamous 'adrenaline rush' from exercising. I never liked exercising and I could never get addicted. The closest thing to an addiction I have experienced was my obsession to lose weight during my JC days. Back then I needed to jog and exercise to lose weight but I never quite got addicted to the exercising bit. 

The truth is I hate exercising because it's tiring and downright painful. And I always hammer myself  ,  thinking I'm just plain lazy and physically weak. Apparently, I do have genuine problems exercising. My muscles are all tight and tensed and I have a couple of injuries and physical problems that would make exercising a chore or even a potential harm to myself. In order to benefit from exercising, I need to first deal with my physical problems. Then comes my energy level, I couldn't run for nuts. I just don't have stamina. Well, thats partly due to 'undereating'. Yes, I am not eating well. The quality of my food intake is poor and I haven't been eating more often and regularly enough. As a result, I am lethargic and weak. 

So how do I know? I was complaining (as usual) to my occupational therapist friend, Adeline, about my issues when she started sharing with me her personal training programme at Ziklag Fitness. I was going to the gym with a PT at one point (10 yrs ago, gosh!) so I was skeptical about the results. I mean, weight loss is definitely expected but is it sustainable and does it promote better health? I am no longer at an age when I still dream of a body to kill for. I just want to function daily without any more aches, pains and fear of breaking my bones! Yes, I am not very optimistic but I am also very realistic. I mean, I am not after a nice number on my weighing scale although I have ditched mine already! I want real results... better health, better fitness.

Carl, my trainer, hit many right spots during my assessment. He noted many of my existing physical issues (some I have already accepted and forgotten) and to my utter delight, he told me he could help me fix them! I mean... can you imagine? I have been told countless times I am paranoid... I am too sensitive with very low tolerance to pain... I am normal to have some pains or aches here and there (personally I hate this). Just because the aches and pains are common doesn't mean they are normal!!! So, I signed up my first 10 sessions with him and hope that I would survive the process.

I'm so glad Adeline is with me. She was my best friend in those lonely IJ days. It was her empathy, intellect and humor that made IJ more bearable. She 'taught' me philosophy, literature and science with her writings and letters. After so many years, she's back in my life and now she's 'teaching' me again about health and fitness. She's one of those learned, compassionate and unassuming people I could talk to without feeling downright silly and inferior. I'm not sure if the feelings are mutual, but I'm thankful to have reconnected with her.